ramblingthoughts

Well I finished the short story for the contest and submitted it today. I am nervous but at least I entered. I liked the story even if it doesn’t win and I will submit it elsewhere is it doesn’t win. Today was the day to submit and I did! Now to sit and wait for the winners announcement which will be a while but I have plenty of other things to do while I wait.

To keep my mind off of the contest, I will write my articles every day like I do anyway. I will write in my blogs like I do everyday. I will write an Unsent Letter every day and write one magazine submission every day. Oh and I will procrastinate with the rest of the group at the Accentuate Writers Forum. Think I can keep my mind off of the contest without going crazy? I think I can.

When the winners are announced I will post here and hopefully I will be one of them. Wish me luck!

I am only 28 years old and I had to sign up for social security because of Bi Polar Disorder and Social Anxiety Disorder. I signed up four years ago and I have been fighting them ever since.

The reason why I had to sign up was because it was the only way I could get a medical card to pay for the meds I need. I needed medication for mood swings and for my nerves. You see, I can’t be around a ton of people without having a panic attack. I also can’t get along with others without medication to elevate my moods.

Before I got on the medication for the social anxiety I couldn’t even go to Wal-Mart to grocery shop without having a severe panic attack. I am not cured, not even close, but I can now go to Wal-Mart and do my shopping without having a severe panic attack. I still have panic attacks but not as bad. I can’t function without the meds I am on.

The meds I am on are Zoloft, Abilify, and Klonopin. I used to be on Seroquel but they made me sleep too much so I asked to be taken off and put on Abilify. The doctor is weaning me off of the Seroquel because it is one medication you can not quit taking suddenly. Read my blog post here why you should never, ever quit taking medications without first speaking to your doctor.

I am doing good so far on these new meds. I talked to my lawyer last week and she said I can expect a Social Security hearing by May and I can expect my money by June or July. This will be the second hearing I have been to and at least this time I was smart enough to hire a lawyer. Last time I thought I could do it myself, yeah right. I was denied right away.

When and if I do get approved after the hearing I will get a lump sum of money. I have plans for that lump sum of money. We are going to fix up our trailer, our property, get a car, and fence in the yard for the dogs. I hope I get it but until then I will continue to work online to help make ends meet. Even after I get it I will work online. You are allowed to make so much money while collecting social security benefits.

I have to call my lawyer back in May to see if she knows anything new. I will post again once I find out something.

I finally started on the short story for the contest. I gave up on the Present theme and decided to do one on the Future theme. It worked out a lot better than the Present and I got over 2,000 words in. Word limit is 7,000 but it doesn’t have to be that long. I think I have a little bit more to write on it and it will be done. Then it will be time for me to upload it to the critiques section on the Accentuate forum so my friends can critic it for me. I think I am doing better with this one than I did with my last one. I hope so anyway.

I won’t tell you what the story is about though. You will have to come on over to the Accentuate Writers Forum to find out. The AWF is a great place to join if you want help and feedback with your writing, support and advice, friendship, and if you are looking for high paying parkets to submit your writing to. Come on over and join in the fun of the short story contest. Join, introduce yourself, get to know us and let us get to know you, and find paying writing leads for high paying markets. Did I mention you will meet great people there/ The AWF is where I met some of my best friends and if you join, you will meet some new friends also. Did I also mention it is a fun and addicting place to be? Hope to see you there! J