Jan 11 2009
Dreams: Part Two
To continue about my other dreams that I had after the dream about my supposedly true love, I had a disturbing dream the next night. I usually don’t get afraid of so-called nightmares because I think of them as ideas for short stories. But this one really scared me and I think I understand the message that was being given to me: you can run from the past but you can never hide from it and that is what I have been trying to do for the past 10 years since I met and married my husband.
So the dream starts out where I am running through these back alleys and I run into this store to hide from the huge, scary looking guy who is chasing me. I go into the store and tell the people who are in there to please help me because someone is trying to hurt me. They tell me to go into the managers office but when I get in there and tell the manager what is going on, he tells me to hide under his desk. I do so and then something awful happens, the man chasing me comes in the back door and finds me and they let him in! They, the people who I thought were going to help hide me, actually let him in and allow him to get me. He doesn’t try to kill me but he starts beating me really bad and I can’t seem to get away.
But I finally do get away only to find myself running in circles and coming back to the same place and no where to hide at all. I know not to go back into the store because they have given me up once and will most likely do so again. So I run and I run until I get to this warehouse. I find a secret door on the floor and I go down into it. However, the man finds me and drags me out and starts beating me again. He tells me he doesn’t want to kill me but if I keep running I will never get anywhere because he will always find me and get me. I think, If you don’t want to kill me, then why are you beating me so bad?
I eventually get away again and I find someone in a car waiting for me. The man looks familiar and actually looks like an old friend from my past when I was a drug addicted teenager. I ask him for help and he tells me to go ahead and get in the car and he will take me out of there. He takes me out of there alright, straight to the man who has been chasing me and trying to hurt me. He is one of them and he also tells me that I can run from my past but I can never hide because they will always find me. Then I wake up.
The messed up part of the dream, I go back to sleep and go right back to where I left off. Only this time I know I am dreaming and I force myself to wake up and I stay awake.
So what do I think these dreams are trying to tell me? The first dream from my last post seems to be trying to tell me that someone from my past loves me so very much and is trying to find me. The second dream, in this post is trying to tell me that I can run from my past but I can never hide from it. I have done a good job so far hiding from it since no one from my past knows where I live, or how to contact me. But do these dreams mean that they are looking for me and will find me? I sure hope not. I wouldn’t mind the man from the first dream finding me because in that dream I was so entirely happy. So happy that I had never felt that happy before in my 28 years of life. But what will happen if this man finds me and we realize we belong together? What if he is from my past and the rest of the people from my past find me too? I don’t want anyone else from my past to find me. I don’t want anything to do with them at all. They almost ruined my life and the only things they care about is drugs and alcohol. I am 28 years old and have grown up a lot since I used to do drugs and drink. I don’t want to go back to that life.
Do you believe dreams are meant to tell you something? Do you think it is your subconscious trying to tell you something? I do believe it since I have had many dreams of that special someone who loves me more than life itself. What will happen if I do find my true soul mate? Will I ever find my true soul mate? I do love my husband but after what we have been through, I don’t believe anymore that we actually belong together. He does, but I don’t.
I pretend to be happy with him to keep the peace but in all honesty, I am not happy with him at all. The only things that keep me going every day is picturing myself living on my own in a beautiful house of my own and maybe one day finding the man of my dreams, literally.
I can understand you! The last time strange times happened to me.
Today, I write in a paranormal-forum:
I come from Germany.
Lately, strange things happened. I don´t know what it is.
Fast I search my true soulmate ( I know not everybody believes in).Feelings about incompletley and search,..everyday.
For a few months, I am sit in front of the computer and I feel sad and very misunderstood and alone.
There was a warm feeling on my right cheek, touched like a hand and warm.
Sometimes I feel in my apartment was a person.
At the beginning it scares me and later I feel protect.
I feel a breathe in my neck, a smell of a parfum….
Once I lay in the bed and my arm was warm and touched, embrace feelings.
Then I felt kissed…….
It feels so peaceful-
Okay, it can be a illusions, a wish…it was so strange for me…so unbelievable. It was really true-
For a few month I dreamed of a unforgettable kiss, everything, peaceful…
I woke up and feel so happy and sad.
In this time it is so hard believing and unbelieving,when you look around you.
Please, don´t give up, however how crazy it heards sometimes.
That is a sign, believe and hear of it.
I wish you find your true soulmate, he finds you, in the right time!!
Jovana